Malam untuk menggaru kepala....

Sebenarnya, aku tak suka sangat bercerita tentang soal jodoh ke bf ke kahwin ke..tapi hari ni aku terasa nak bercakap2 pasal ni pulak..bukan sebab aku desperate nak bf/kahwin..cumanye petang tadi, ada someone tanya soalan yang membuatkan aku termenung seketika...soalannya simple "Akak tak risau ke umur akak dah 28 tapi akak tak kahwin lagi" dushh!!! terasa seperti lubang hidung aku ditumbuk oleh spongebob dan terbayang2 spongebob gelak kat aku...

Hmmm...budak yang bertanya tu perempuan yang berumur 23..sangat muda...tapi kelakar, dia asyik mengeluh risau takut dia kahwin lambat..rasa nak sekeh je die...hahaha..young girl, wake up la!!!!

Yes, marriage used to be my priority... tapi sekarang,keinginan untuk kahwin tu jauh sangat dari hati aku..
Oh well, tipu la kalau aku kata aku tak risau jadi old maid kan..tapi bukan soal tu yang menjadi keutamaan aku..ada perkara lain yang lebih aku risaukan...walaupun aku ni bukanlah kategori wanita solehah, gadis baik, anak yang taat..tapi serius, aku memang selalu risaukan amalan2 dan perbuatan2/ dosa pahala yang aku dapat selama ni...**mode ustazah** (diiringi lagu2 nasyid dari kumpulan raihan....)

aku perempuan yang normal..ada naluri ingin berkeluarga, ada anak, ada suami..cumanya setelah beberapa kali aku fail dalam mencari pasangan (gile skema ko berkata2 malam ni), ada sedikit rasa takut nak mencari lagi...aku penat bercinta, dah la menambah dosa, pastu apa pun takde...aku cakap macam ni bukan sebab aku takde bf, tapi sebab kan pengalaman yang lepas2 tu buat aku rasa bosan..so, aku decide, biar je jodoh tu datang sendiri sebab aku percaya, Allah dah tetapkan seseorang untuk aku, cuma lambat sikit je dia nak muncul..lagipun semua yang jadi ada hikmahnya...postive positive...

Lagipun, the truth is, aku masih lagi sukakan someone...sebabkan feeling tu masih ada, sukar aku nak terima laki lain......so, sekali lagi aku decide...biarlah feeling tu pergi dengan sendiri because it came naturally too...betul tak? it's all bout times....dan kalau aku dengan dia ada jodoh, takkan kemana jugak..jadi aku tak nak kusut2 kan kepala aku...benda2 macam ni tak payah nak push2...cumanya sesetangah orang tu dia tak faham, asyik2 bertanya benda yang sama kat aku...

Lagipun aku selesa dengan hidup aku sekarang...single is golden what!! hehehehe...aku dah biasa hidup berdikari..so, aku takde masalah nak jaga diri sendiri...

aku ni dah immune dengan soalan2 seperti  "kenapa single lagi?bila nak kahwin?ko ni picky sangat kot..." macam2 la....kelakar la manusia ni...they wont stop asking you...so, dont let those questions bother you...live on your own way... Cheer up!! =p

Tired laaaa

Today was a super hectic day. I am totally exhausted + stress. Feel like wanna cry...The worst thing is, when I am so down and stress like this, I have nobody besides me..come back at home and the room looks so empty....but I'm too tired to cry now...I'll be okay later, like always!!! Smile and cheer up!!! Keep on moving ...na na na na~~~

Yeah!! I drive..whohoooo!!!!

I got my driving license 10 years ago but never drive alone.haha..and today, for the 1st time, I drive... in KL..hahahahahahaha...I am proud of myself..ok ok..I know it's too normal and nothing is so special bout this..but I am still considering this is one of my biggest achievement...for this year la kot   ahaks! But I need to drive more and more to get familiar with the pedal, clutch and gear..it's a manual car ok..it's not easy for me..Macam tak percaya pun ada...orang yang rapat dengan aku tahu la macamana takutnya aku untuk drive...hehe

My passion...

Oh, macam mak lampir....

Ini my friend's punya daughter...tapi tak jadi sangat..

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Ini my friend, Chom....lama sangat2 tak melukis...I need to draw more to sharpen my skill..hehe

It's 2011 =D

Alhamdulillah..we are in 2011 now...a new year begin..well, I really hope this year will be a fantastic/wonderful year for me...too much tears on 2010..huhuhuhu...

So hard to believe that I am 28 this year..hahahaha...still childish..I guess, I enjoyed my life too much.. =p So, it's time to be more serious about life now..

Thinking about my life, I don't have any GREAT achievement to be proud..except completed my degree. That's all. Hmmm...I have so many things that I want to do..but I am stuck with my responsibility as the only beloved daughter..hoho.. too sad that I don't have freedom at the age of 28 ..*sigh*...

Okay, I shouldn't think about it too much..I will do my best to live..muwahaha... InshaAllah, at the end of the day, things will work for me as I wish... =)

pokok, daun dan angin....

Leaf's departure wasn't because of Wind's pursuit or Tree didn't ask her to stay.
Leaf's departure was because she needed an excuse to find the world of her own.


Wind- comes and goes freely. It may be a strong gust of wind that carries leaf away from tree but how long can wind carry her along his journey?


Leaf was carried away by wind but was also left alone by wind.


Without wind's pursuit or without tree asking her to stay, one day, leaf will also detach herself from tree. Not because of wind, but because she wants to grow into something more...


***The ending of the story of tree, leaf and wind is up to us...***

My own life???

Another day begin at new place. Today I am feeling better. Last night, I have a dream. A bad dream. I was so sad. Hmmm...I am give up now. I can't choose or decide my own life.  Being the single daughter is not a good thing for me like people always think, I AM SO LUCKY..huh??! I can't make my own decision. I am really tired with my own life. I can't predict or guess my future. Yes, everyone can't predict the future. I meant, I even can't see the path. Which way that I might go....