Dreams

All peoples have dreams right? So do I. I have a lot of things that I want but I know we can't get all what we want.

Actually, I'm a bit disappointed with myself. I am almost 30 but I still can't do what I really really want. I keep changing job. Most of my friends already have a stable life at my age. I am still looking something that can make me happy and enjoy. I'm not saying my work now is bad. It's good but I'm not enjoy it. I do it for the sake of ...emmm, money I guess. because if I'm not working, I'm out of money. hehe..and I'm not a person who will call family or friends when I need money (that will be my last resort).
This thing really bothers me. It demotivate me to go to work.

So, what is my dream...hmmm.....
There are a few things that really make me happy when I see it. Guess what??? hehehehe...

Cakes, cookies and baking equipment!!!  

Why?? I also don't know why...since I was a kid, in primary school.. I like to play with flour, butter, egg.. when my mother is not a round, I will steal these things, mix them and adding whatever available in the kitchen, to make cookies..and the funniest thing, I fried the cookies instead of bake it..bhahahahaha..because we didn't have an oven back then. So the taste was like...emmm, if you give them to stray dogs/cats, they might prefer to starve until die rather than eat the cookies..and if you throw the cookies on the mirror, it will crack too..gagagagaga!!! Even though my cookies was so baaaad, but I enjoyed doing it.

I don't know how to make  good cake and cookie because my mother don't know either. She can't teach me.
But, last time, I made cookies for hari raya. All my aunts and neighbors said the cookies were tasty and good. *wink wink*..hehehe..

So, I wish, someday..I own a bakery shop..Even though I don't have the skill to make good cakes and cookies, but that can be learned, it's not a problem. That is why I really want to join bakery class. But for the time being, I can't until I have my own house, it's would be easier. Sharing a house with strangers are soooo uncomfortable. My new housemates are not so friendly like my previous housemates =(

Okay, enough for today..here is a picture of a steamed choc cake that I made for my friends..not so good, but ok la..hehe...till nex time.. ^_^

Mumble, rumble...

Haiyak..just now when I was in bathroom, I have a lot of idea to write..now when I'm in front of my lappy, I am so blur...do I have to go back to bathroom or maybe next time I have to bring along notes so that I can jot down whatever come across my minds or maaaaaybeeeee I can pretend that I am in bathroom now..ngeh ngeh ngeh.... =p

Tomorrow is cuti..huyeeeeyyy!!!! Actually it's not a good thing because I have a loooooot of works that I still can't finish..but I really want cuti..huhu..

Hmm, I not an active blogger. I only update my blog when I have nothing to do or I am too bored or I have an idea to write or or or ??? I also don't know......

I know this is not an interesting blog..I dont think people like to read it but I still appreciate for those who visit my blog even though I know most of visitor are accidentally open this blog and after that never come back again....bhahahaha!!

Why most of the time I use English instead of Bahasa here? Some of the Malaysian might say "hek eleeeee, poyo gile minah ni, perasan cakap english pulak" Well, I use broken English. So what?? This is the only way I can improve my writing skill (for the time being la). I haven't use much English after I graduated from school. Yes, I use English at my work because all the documents are in English but I still don't write much..

Okay, enough about that..to be continued.....

Monday is back..shuhh!!shuhhhh!!!!!

I'm listening to 'A year without rain' by Selena Gomez. I'm not her fan but I have to admit that she is sooo cute (like me..muwahaha!) 

Monday is back. huh!! No mood to go to work at all. Friday, please come faster..pleaseeeee...
*dancing mode..just like Selena Gomez in A year without rain* (oh come on Selena..Bieber definitely is not my taste)

Yeaaa, before I lose my mind, I better go to bed..

 "It's like a year without rainnnnn..woooo woooooo woooooooo"

till nex time =)

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It would be really nice if I have someone beside me to talk to right now. But I always end up talking with my laptop, pretend like it is listening and responding to what I say. I dont know why I'm fooling myself like this. Few days ago, I had a conversation with a guy in my office. He asked me if I ever hurt any guy before. yeaa, I did. So, he said..that's why I cant be happy. I agreed. But should they put all the blame on me alone? They think that I am happy everytime I break someone's feeling. They dont know, how bad I feel about it. Sometimes, they make me hate myself.

How I wish, when I open my eyes the next day, I will lose my mind..that I cant remember anything..forget everything...

When u fall in love...

You fall in love with someone,

As a result, you come to hate yourself,

If this the case,  this someone is not meant for you,

This someone is not your destiny....

The ending of Tasik Titiwangsa story.....

Today, I went to Aida's wedding with Tina and hubby, Faiz at Pekan Pahang. It took about 3 hours to reach there..soooo tired...but I'm sure, Faiz was more tired since he drove the car..hehe

I don't know how to describe my feeling...I live in this house since Nov 2008...and I have a few homies that I really close like Mira, Tina, Raihan,Yana, Ruhi and Aida..

When Mira left this house, I'm not really sad because I still have Yana and Tina around..same goes when Yana and Tina left, I still have Aida...but when Aida left, I am a bit sad and empty because I have nobody to talk anymore in this house..Well, I have another 2 new homies, but I'm not close to them and 1 one them is a new tension..haha..ok2, forget bout the new tension...leave her...

Aida is one of my best homies...and today when I see her smiling in her beautiful wedding dress, I am so happy...finally, after faced a lot of pressures and arguments, plus the tasik titiwangsa drama, now she's officially married to Mr Policeman, Fakur..hehehehe..Congratulation dear..May Allah bless your marriage till the end...be a good wife ok!!! =)

 

Makan makan makan....

 

Garangnya Mr.Polis a.k.a Gemuk

Beautiful newlywed

If I could turn back time....

Things that I really miss...

1. Flashman, Sailormoon, Mearo attack...

2. Snoring in Arabic class with my desk partner, Ruhma...=p

3. Pacifier..

4. Naik beca ke tadika...nostalgia betul..

5. Ketiow sup depan rumah Walong Fiah kat Ulu Tiram....T_T

6. to be continued....