the end?

This might be my last entry. Might be..

I found that the leaf still miss the tree. aAll of sudden she felt heartache. Ahh..this is terrible. ='(
But..everything has over.. the wind has taken the leaf away from the tree.
 The leaf has turned back to the tree once..but  the tree didnt hold her tightly so she left the tree and decided will never turn back to the tree again..
='(

Melangkah ke kampung...

Oh my...lama gile ah ding dong aku x update blog ni. lepas aku terminate broadband tahun lepas, mmg jarang la aku online dgn laptop aku. Pakai phone je skrg. Zaman dah canggih kan. Pegi mana2 pun boleh online, tp nk update blog dgn phone mmg payah la skit. xde feel babe!

Seperti biasa, sesi bercakap dgn diri sendiri...

Kurang dari 2 bulan, dah nk masuk tahun baru. Huwaaaa, maknanye umur aku makin tua la. Pastu pejam celik pejam celik, dah jd warga emas..hot kau!!

Aku baru je resign. Sbbnye plan nk cari keje kt kg, duk ngan mak ayah. Aku bosan duk sorang2 kt kl ni.  Bila aku bgtau kawan2 aku, dorang suh la aku cari boypren. hehehe. Kalau aku nk boypren, agaknye aku xde la single cam skrg (perasan siuttt!)

Aku mmg xde hati dah nk couple lg. Lgpun bila dah lama single, mcm selesa plak.Tapi tipu la aku aku cakap x sunyi. Sunyi mmg sunyi tp aku rasa xde la sampai depress. Alhamdulillah, aku masih lg okay dengan keadaan aku skrg. Aku dah give up. Ada rasa trauma skit dgn pengalaman lepas. So, jika diijinkan Allah, kalau dah jumpa yg suka sama suka, suh je itu boy jumpa makyah aku...no couple2 lg..kalau dah couple nnt, ade la setan menghasut nk wat benda2 x elok..aku ni normal Eton oi.. ahahaha...T_T

 Ok berbalik dengan cerita aku dah resign tu, aku x sure kalau aku boleh duk kt kg mcm dulu2. Yela, dah 10 tahun aku duk KL. dah biasa kt sni. tibe2 balik sana tanam padi...weng jgk la kan kepala aku...huhu..xde2, makyah aku wat bisnes, xtanam padi. igtnye nk tolong mak aku run kedai dia, tp mak aku cakap makan gaji lg senang, x sakit kepala...hmmmm....

So, aku nk balik kg dulu tgk keadaan. kalau rasa x ok, aku cabut lari balik KL. tinggal je dgn adik aku senang...hehehe..

I am...

Dear blog...

I really don't know how to describe my feeling now.

Like something is missing...but I'm not sure what...

Its not a good feeling.

And for some reasons..I feel a bit sad, upset...I want to cry..but there is no tears...

Dear blog..

I know you wont answer me..

But I really need someone to talk to now...

I don't need a commentator..I just need a listener...

**ustazah mode**

This is my first entry for 2012, I know it has been awhile..

I am still alive, Alhamdulillah.. =)

But I am not feeling well..I had flu and cough, grrrr!!

Well, let start something for this year...okay, I know it's already March..am I missing out here? Hehe..

I have been thinking a lot recently...muhasabah diri in other word..

The ultimate goal for Muslim is Jannah and too bad I am still far from it. =(
But, I am so grateful to Allah that He always guide me to think and give me strength to be a better Muslim. I am not good, but I always want and try to be a good Muslim..I did a lot of mistakes, so when the thing didnt turn out like what I've planned, I only can blame myself and thank to Allah as He always give the reminder to me. He lead me, He guide me. Well, there must be a reason for whatever happened and I am sure Allah has a better plan for me...I pray to Allah that He will keep guiding me...

Everyone make mistake, we are not perfect. But don't use that as an excuse to make mistake. We all should do our best. Allah is forgiven =)

Last 3 years, aku countdown new year @ my birthday dengan mira, housemate aku. Last 2 years aku countdown dengan ex aku dan kawan2 dia dekat area rumah ni. Last year aku countdown dengan aida dan kak gee. But this year...aku countdown alone..hmmm..

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malang tak berbau

penatnya. minggu ni memang minggu yang memenatkan. dah la aku terjatuh depan starbuck, kaki terseliuh, lutut berdarah..hari ni document yang banyak kat ofis terjatuh atas kaki aku, berdarah lagi. adoi. dosa banyak sangat la ni. tinggal dua hari lagi sebelum new year. setiap kali new year aku jadi sedih. betapa aku tak sukakan new year!

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transition...

It will takes a lot of efforts and sacrifices to do a transition. Once you have decided to do it, just do it...

My family and friends would be surprised if they know about my plan..but I am sure, they will be happy to know this.

Who is the real traitor??

Serious??!! My uncles have been killed by your peoples and you called them traitors??? Well, I am sure Karl Marx would call you a traitor too!! Wait, did Karl Marx know you????

'I am okay' =)

I lost confidence. I feel upset, disappointed but I hide all the feeling with my ugly smile. I like to talk, I like to share my story with peoples but not my problems. I am damn stubborn. I always say, I am doing good. I will do things by myself. I don't like to be a burden or trouble to anyone. I always say, I am happy like this, I am okay with this and that.....

But actually, I am not okay..

...

DISAPPOINTED!!!

Siapa mahu gaduh dengan aku?

Aku selalu cakap aku tak suka gaduh dengan orang. So everytime pun kalau ada disagreement, aku akan diam, buat bodoh, atau mengalah. Actually, the main reason is, aku seorang yang darah gemuruh. Bila aku bergaduh dengan orang, jantung aku berdengup macam nak pecah, tangan aku menggigil, nafas aku tercungap. Insiden kat tempat kerja baru-baru ni buat aku terfikir..aku ada heart problem ke??

Ada seorang agent perempuan shelaka buat perangai setan dengan aku semalam. Aku beranikan diri membidas dia, tapi masa tu tangan aku menggigil-gigil sampai aku terpaksa sorokkan tangan aku bawah meja. Bukan sbb aku nk slap muka dia, tapi macam menggigil ketakutan. It's too obvious. Yeee, aku memang tak boleh bergaduh dengan sesiapa secara face to face (dalam sms boleh la..haha).

Juadah berbuka aku hari ni..

Aku bukan pandai sangat masak ni, tapi aku suka memasak bila aku free. Aku suka cuba resepi baru atau pun reka resepi sendiri (bajet2 sedap la konon.) Aku tak suka sangat makan kat luar, so kalau ada bahan kat dapur, aku masak je dari makan kat luar tu..membazir... So kali ni entry aku nak share resepi masakan yg sempat aku snap pic nye..hehe...


1. Sup Petola

Aku suka makan petola. Sup ni aku reka sendiri. Dapat ilham dari masakan orang cham (nenek aku selalu masak makanan cham) cumanya nenek aku guna labu sayong,..aku guna petola, then aku modify la sikit2 ikut selera aku..hehe

Bahan-bahan (2-3 orang makan)
-bawang merah (3 biji ditumbuk)
-bawang putih (2 biji ditumbuk)
-separuh ikan kembung (goreng garing, pastu dikeluarkan isinya, pastu ditumbuk lumat)
-petola (separuh sahaja, tapi kalau nak makan ramai, guna sebatang terus)
-sedikit mi su'un..(ntah betul ke x aku eja ni...aku guna sikit je, tak sampai segenggam pun)
-sedikit garam dan serbuk perasa
-1 sudu teh black pepper (agak2 la, jangan penuh membukit plak sudu tu)
-1 cawan air (kalau nak kuah lagi banyak, tambah je air..ikut suka masing2 la)
-sedikit minyak untuk menumis

Cara-cara
Tumis bawang merah n bawang putih sampai garing, then masukkan ikan kembung yang dah dilumatkan..kemudian masuk petola, kacau2, then black pepper, pastu masukkan air, last sekali masuk la garam dan serbuk perasa.. tunggu sup mendidih and petola masak...siappp!!!

2. Daging masak paprik

Yg ni bukan aku reka sendiri, kat kedai makan mana2 pun ada. Cumanya aku masak ikut comman sense la, dah beberapa kali rasa paprik kat luar, so boleh agak la tukang masak tu bubuh apa kan...


Bahan-bahan (2 orang makan)
-Daging (lebih kurang 100gram je, pasal makan 2 orang..agak2 je la..kalau makan ramai, bubuh la daging banyak)
-bawang merah (3 biji dihiris)
-bawang putih (2 biji dihiris)
-halia ( 1 inci dihiris)
-daun limau purut (3 helai pun cukup)
-1 sudu makan sos tiram
-1 sudu makan sos tomato
-2 sudu makan sos cili
-1 sudu makan cili boh
-sedikit air
-sedikir minyak untuk menumis
-garam dan sebuk perasa
-carrot
-anak jagung
-lada besar

Cara-cara
Tumis bawang merah, bawang putih sampai garing sikit, pastu masuk la cili boh..kacau2 kejap, baru la masuk daging, agak2 daging dah separuh masak tu, masuk la semua sos2 diatas tu..kacauuuuu, then masuk daun limau purut, masukkan air, dengan garam dan serbuk perasa sekali...tunggu sampai daging tu empuk sikit, baru la masuk sayur2..kacau2..tunggu sampai sayur masak ...siapppp (jangan lama sangat, nanti sayur lembik tak sedap)

Working saturday

I used to hate working on Saturday. But since I started working at GE, I couldn't believe I volunteer to work on Saturday..huhu

I don't like it, but I have to..  if I don't do it, I'll be in trouble because too much unfinished work at my workstation. Who's going to do it?? Hmm,.....me.. Yes, at the end of the day, I still have to do it. T_T

 I just came back from office. Tired like usual, and even more tired because of the warm weather.

Urghhh!!! Another 3 hours to go for breaking fast.... I plan to make seafood spaghetti and 'bubur kacang hijau' today...nyum nyum...

Shelaka punya pompuan!

Aku makin jarang meng-update blog ni sebab aku sangat penat lately..Aku ada banyak story mory tapi sekarang aku dah lupa..

Minggu lepas, ada satu insiden kat tempat kerja yang agak memalukan aku. Aku dihantar oleh bos aku ke call centre for training purpose. They put me with a senior yang macam celaka perangainya. Aku buat silap masa jawab call customer. So that senior marah-marah. Aku terpaku, terkejut, tergamam, malu, sebak..mata aku dah bergenang tapi aku berjaya menahan la air mata aku.Huhu. Dalam keadaan yang dingin tu, aku buat percubaan berani mati yang mana, dia sebenarnya menyindir aku, tapi aku dengan rakusnya ketawa besar sebab aku fikir dia buat lawak. HAhahaHAhaha... T_T

So, bila balik ke workstation aku, team leader aku tanya la pasal training tu. Dengan tiba-tiba aku nangis, huwaaaaaa!!!!! Aduh, malu, malu, malu....dan cerita aku nangis ni sampai ke pengetahuan supervisor aku..malu, malu, malu....bukan apa. Aku risau orang fikir aku ni manja, kena marah sikit dah nangis. Arghhh!!! Hmm, I was expecting she will guide me. but...and that's why I was sad...

bos, bagi la saya cuti lama...

Sejak akhir-akhir ni, hati aku meronta-ronta untuk ambil cuti lama. Masalahnya, bos aku nak bagi ke?? Aku rasa nak ambil unpaid leave, maybe dalam 2-3 bulan...hmmm...

Aku nak pergi menuntut ilmu. Aku dah lama berniat nak menuntut ilmu di 'satu' tempat yang mana aku rasa, kalau kawan-kawan aku dengar, a big question mark mesti muncul kat kepala.

Entah la, aku rasa bosan sangat life kat KL ni. Aku nak rehat, lari dari KL sekejap. Semoga Allah permudahkan jalanku dan niatku...

Mr T, Miss L and Mr W.....

Dear Mr T, don't chase a girl like you are so desperate, be cool...if the girl like you, you don't have to work too hard to get her...but don't be too cool, you might lose her...once she turned away, she won't turn back to you...

Dear Miss L, don't chase a guy who are not interested with u...waste time...it's okay if he doesn't want you or doesn't like you..let him go, be patient because the right guy will come to you soon...

Dear Mr W, don't chase a girl who are not interested with you....waste time...but if you are smart, she will be yours...be comfort to her..be her 'rain'...

p/s: I'm trying to be Shakespeare..haha

I'm away

I'll be away during the YELLOW day.. I'm not trying to escape, but I didnt know it will be on tomorrow. Hopefully there will be no bad things happen in KL...who knows the 'gomen' will declare the curfew, it's better if I runaway from KL..hahahaha..be safe Malaysian =p

tembak tembak!!

Hari ni aku nk merepek...

Aku rasa nak tembak orang..kalau boleh nak tembak lubang hidung sampai rabak..tapi sian pulak, kalau takde lubang idung, macamana nak membentuk taik idung??

Orang kata penantian itu satu penyeksaan...lagi seksa bila yang kita tunggu itu sia-sia dan langsung tak mendatangkan hasil atau faedah..disaat itulah aku nak mencarut "NATE SUNGGUH!!!" T_T

(sesungguhnya mencarut dalam bahasa kelate sangat-sangat lah mendatangkan kelegaan..haha)

Pernah tak korang takut dgn bau kentut sndiri?? nak-nak lagi lepas makan durian...itulah yg aku rasa skrg.. T_T  (tolong jangan cakap aku pengotor, sbb aku jujur...hehe..orang yg pengotor adalah orang yg suka menipu)

Money matter

I am so desperate..I need money!! Hmm, no wonder laaa some peoples become a drug dealer just becoz they really really need money... Aarghhh!! life is damn tough. why? bcos we live in a capitalist world..Yes, we are the product of capitalism.. rich people will be richer and poor people will be poorer...and that's the reason why Karl Marx tried to change this world with socialism ideology..Hmm, now I agree with Karl Marx..we all should live in socialist society and everyone should suffer like North Korea people.. T_T (apa aku bebel ni, stress punya pasal, semua ideology dah keluar)

kiasan

Kadang-kadang kita terpaksa guna bahasa kiasan sebab kita tak nak orang kecil hati. Actually, aku dah lama faham dengan maksud dia. He didnt want to hurt me, so he answer 'tak tahu' despite the fact that the answer is 'tak berminat'. Aku dah dewasa, aku dah biasa berhadapan dengan situasi begini. Apapun, asalkan aku tak menyusahkan hidup dia, aku dah rasa okay.

Cuma, aku tak nak orang salah faham dan kesian kat aku. Kononnya aku kena reject. huhu. Tapi aku malas nak explain. Biarlah, for what aku explain kat orang kan. keep quiet saja. it's better for everyone. Lagi banyak aku berkata-kata, lagi banyak orang akan salah anggap dan fikir bukan-bukan. So, yang penting aku aman damai dengan hidup aku, diam-diam sudah...muehehehehe...